some people do drugs. or they vandalize. maybe they watch movies. together or with friends. sometimes it’s videogames. it’s like a high. it’s being free. it’s a deep, penetrating happiness. it usually works best with other people. you become completely relaxed and carefree. you can run faster at night, barefoot, on a really big, really open, field. “giddy.”
yesterday we played tag. then capture the flag. then sardines. during our last game of sardines, we were able to keep something like 8 people hidden in one spot. everyone played along. faces down in the dirt, breathing slowed. you gain a consciousness of the whole. similarly in capture the flag. like fish, with their lateral lines. “hive mentality.” you see one person go, and you go also. one person draws a defender out, and you move in. sometimes it’s way out of sync, but then sometimes, for a brief bit, everyone thinks together. it’s beautiful.
PS- i’m going to write more.
